As I type this…

By Declan's Mommy | Published: August 15, 2010

…I am sitting next to my husband watching my sweet Declan sleep for what could be the last night.

Today, we got the worst news any parent caring for a child with cancer could get…the cancer has spread and there isn’t anything that can be done to stop or cure it.  There aren’t words to really describe what we’re feeling right now…we’re numb, terrified, distraught, sad for what we’re about to lose…too many emotions to collect.

At the same time, we’re also glad for what we have had…6 more months with him to love him, hold him and smile with him.  He has lit our world up in a way we could never have imagined.  We are blessed beyond belief to have been given the gift of this little boy, our Declan.

Tomorrow we have the unenviable task of telling our boys their brother will be going to heaven soon and watching them say good-bye.  We will also watch his Grandparents, Aunts, Uncles and Cousins come to love on Declan one last time.

Declan’s time with us is now short.  Please pray for his comfort and that of our family during this time.

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3 Comments

  1. tjaramillo
    Posted August 15, 2010 at 9:33 am | Permalink

    I have followed your medical journey with Declan and my heart breaks reading this last post. I can’t even imagine what you have been through. I rejoiced with the good news and prayed when there were setbacks. I honestly believed he would be the one to make it through this type of cancer. What a strong little boy. You and your husband are amazing! You fought to save your little guy and I’m sure Declan knows how much you love him. I am so sorry. My prayers are with you and your family. Peace be with you!

  2. LindaSmith
    Posted August 15, 2010 at 2:56 pm | Permalink

    You have been in my thoughts and prayers daily. I hope you know that you are a very special family. My peace be with you and everyone who came to know Declan (in person or by following your daily updates). Take care and we are all there for you.

  3. MamaStoy
    Posted August 15, 2010 at 8:04 pm | Permalink

    My heart breaks for you and your family. I am so sorry. I have been following your blog on this heart wrenching journey and have been praying for a miracle for your dear boy who has the sweetest little smile. Each day I checked to see how little Declan was doing and it would inspire me to pray for all of you. My prayers are with you and I pray that God gives comfort to all of you.

    God Bless,
    Kim Stoy

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